Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Anxiety

Anxiety. Do I suffer from it? Yes. All the time - not really. Occasionally - ya. How do I deal with it? 

Well there are a few ways. One is a natural product called L-Theanine. It works and it works well. The more anxiety I have the more I take. Normally I only take one capsule (100mg) per night but when things are causing me to have anxious thoughts I take more.

Music is another way. Songs like Que Sera Sera by Doris Day

"Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be."

A Christian chorus "I have the joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart, down in my heart, down in my heart, I have the joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart, down in my heart to stay.
Another Christian chorus "the joy of the Lord is my strength (4x)"
From the musical Annie "the sun will come out tomorrow...."
A Christian chorus: Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone), Jesus is the Answer. Actually the list of chorus' could go on and on as music does touch my soul.

God. God is the way! God is my strength. Without God I would not be where I am today.

I truly believe that anxiety is a medical condition and not everyone suffers from it. Some people will feel anxious at times but not something that lasts for a long period. People with true anxiety often have thoughts in their head that they cannot explain, they have no idea why they would even think things like that. I have had those kinds of thoughts. Thoughts of "maybe I should just stop my car on the tracks" but as soon as these kinds of thoughts came into my mind I knew they were "crazy" or "wrong" and that I would (hopefully not) ever consider them. But why? Why did they even come into my head? These things I cannot explain but I do know that with God's help, with the help of L-Theanine (a natural "drug") I do not have those kinds of thoughts.

Do I have any anxiety these days? Sometimes. We are in the beginning of a kitchen reno so that might cause some. People have caused some. But through it all I am trusting that God will see me through one day at a time. 
(another old chorus just came to mind) 

I'm only human; I'm just a man
Help me believe in what I could be and all that I am
Show me the stairway
I have to climb
Lord for my sake
Teach me to take
One day at a time

One day at a time, sweet Jesus
That's all I'm asking from you
Give me the strength to do everything that I have to do
Yesterday's gone sweet Jesus
And tomorrow may never be mine
Help me today
Show me the way
One day at a time.

Could you remember
When you walked among men
Jesus, you know when you're looking below
It's worse now than then
Pushin' and shovin' crowd in your mind
Lord for my sake
Teach me to take
One day at a time

Have I cured my anxiety? No. Is is much better? Yes. Will I continue to suffer from it? Probably. Have I learned how to ease it? Yes.

I pray that these songs, my words, God's words, medical help (not only natural "drugs" but good counselling) would help anyone who might come across this page.